I wasn’t always a person that felt aligned, healthy, focused, full of self worth, full of faith and sure of who I was. For most of my life I felt out of place, lost, angry, resentful, judged, and unhappy with who I was, who I was becoming and where I came from. There were many moments when I questioned why I was here, what my purpose was and if I really had anything substantial to offer this world. I found myself in a position where I lived for everyone else, where I was the helper, the problem solver for everyone around me and always to the rescue, the one everyone called for answers to their problems, but when it came to MY life, I somehow couldn’t find a way to save myself.
I grew up surrounded by mental illness. Most of my family battled with manic-depression including my mother. I spent most of my childhood and teenage years feeling as though I needed to be the parent and was always consumed by the dark cloud over me wondering when her next breakdown would occur. I lived in constant fear, uncertainty and unease. To keep distracted I self-destructed with anything that took my attention away from the life I was living and lowered my standards because some parts of me didn’t believe that I could be capable of anything more than what I was at the time because of where I came from, what my history was and the life I was living.
Still, somewhere underneath all of that doubt, fear and lack of confidence deep down I knew that there had to be more out there for me. I knew I had the gift of helping others get through their hurdles and I knew that I could be the light for others and even for myself if I worked hard, focused, and stayed consistent with building a life for myself that was different than the one my mind kept trying to convince me I would have, based on my circumstances.
At 21 I moved out on my own, had a great career, started to travel and began the journey to finding out who I was. At the time I had no idea that even though I had managed to become independent and live 100% on my own, I was still self-destructing again in my own personal way. It was a cycle that continued long after leaving the toxic environment I grew up in teaching me that just because we leave an environment, it doesn’t mean we don’t take lingering pieces of energy and thoughts that the environment placed within us.
Somewhere between my mid to late 20’s I found myself in a relationship that was no longer serving me and instead of leaving and moving on when I knew it had reached its end, I stayed and settled for longer than I should have and turned to food, TV and any distraction possible to ease my unhappiness and unworthiness.
I didn’t know it at the time, but I had become so consumed with a lack and joy, grief and discouragement that food had become my only escape, the only thing I looked forward to. Emotional eating, lack of drive, lack of motivation, passion and purpose lead me to being 40 pounds overweight, pre-diabetic, full of stomach ulcers, gastritis, skin issues and an overall unhealthy body as a whole. I wasn’t even 30 yet and I felt beat up, defeated and dead inside.
One day I was sitting down at work and looked over to the mirror on my left and saw my stomach hanging over my pants, the eczema on my arms and the person I had become and I didn’t even recognize myself anymore. It was as though for the very first time I was seeing what I had allowed myself to become and a switch went off inside of me. I knew that I had to change, I knew that I had to make better choices and I knew that if I continued on the path that I was on it wouldn’t lead to anywhere good.
So I left my six year relationship, dived deep into personal development, self-help and began following the teachings of Abraham Hicks, Dr. Wayne Dyer, Bashar, Louise Hay, Deepak Chopra, Don Miguel Ruiz as well other spiritual and personal development leaders and began to transform my life from within. I began to educate myself on how I could heal my body and mind through nutrition, meditation, and a more holistic way of living. It made sense to me that we could all heal if we learned the root cause of all of our physical ailments, anxiety and fears and and then treated the cause with a whole foods approach, proper nutrition, consistent exercise and most importantly mindset shifts and inner work through meditation and personal development exercises.
As my own journey progressed over time with all of the above, I released the 40 pounds I had gained, began to feel alive and hopeful again, and for the first time in my life I felt at ease, found true clarity and felt unconditional happiness to my core. It all started out with slowly cutting portions of my food, detoxing of processed foods and sugars and I continued to learned how the food I was eating affected my body making necessary changes based on how I felt and eventually became a vegetarian/vegan, something I never thought I would be able to do.
Throughout my journey, I shared what I was learning with others because I felt that everyone should feel the way I felt, I just couldn’t keep it to myself. We all have a better version of ourselves that can manifest and the journey to that version of self often needs guidance and support and so I began coaching those that seeked to get healthier, rid their lives of toxic situations, thoughts and food. My heart swelled with amount of progress people saw in their lives when they applied what I shared and taught them and coaching became my passion and my purpose and my life.
When we heal from within through nutrition and mindset shifts our lives change for the better in every way. Doors open for us, opportunity finds us, we rid ourselves of toxic people, situations and illness, we live the lives we deserve to live and we change our world and the world outside of us with our alignment. We are all meant to live lives that are full of love, joy, happiness, progress, abundance and empowerment. When we take control of our thoughts, our actions and habits we declare responsibility for our lives and when we do that, we can manifest the best life we could ever live. I know this is possible because once I did so all things lined up for me. Now I am happily married, healthier than I have ever been, fulfilled, running a home business I am passionate about and constantly expanding in a way that serves myself and others.
I am here to help you to find your way too, to help you to get to the place that you deserve to be and to help you gain clarity by getting to the core root of your problems and fixing them from the root.
We can only do this when re-connect with our own source and who we really are underneath all of the heaviness life has put upon us. You can find your way back to source and I will help you to do that. This was something I was always meant to do for others and my journey from the lowest of the low to the highest of the high was a lesson so that I could help you. This is my gift to the world. This is my gift to you.
“One in alignment is more powerful than a million who are not.” – Abraham Hicks